My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

We are crooked souls trying to stay up straight,
Dry eyes in the pouring rain well
The shadow proves the sunshine

Caught in the silent contemplation of uncorrupted innocence, my thoughts linger over memories of long ago.  In the soft light of morning I lay in the hollow shades of a life time ready to end, ready to step aside, bow out politely and disapear.  To fade in the blissful darkness of night, under the far off stars, a dream yet to come to life.  In the distance, on the wind, softly whispering thy name, fate waits.  To slip serenely into the endless oblivion that awaits, to cradle us in loving arms, to empty our souls and minds of all thought and reason, we fall willingly.  Hoping to find the discordant lullabys of our forgotten innocence.  Misshapen memories of the dreams we once lived, holding onto the blades of our convictions we find the broken eulogy replayed in our heads, pouring forth the altered past, the lines obscured, the picture fades, eyes widen as we awak, the sudden realization of "we are who we choose to be" envelopes the senses.  Disfigured, beyond recognition, the hopeless that plague our nightmares, the abandoned who infest the cracked sidewalks and allyways, used and discarded, replaceable toys, subjected to the vile fantasies of a broken mind.                    

wait for it

the soft rap of a rain drop
it's finally here

the sky is smiling
spreading it's calm
in silver blankets

wait just a little longer

another rap on the windshield
not much longer now

and now it falls
the sky's sweet laughter
washing the world clean

just whisper

listen to this symphony
cool and melodic

and when it's over
we get a kiss on the cheek
and smell the world as it was meant

let the rain fall

Sing the joy I see
Bouncing from your eyes
Off silver clouds
And finally to me

Shifting my paradigm
So out of my element
So long finding pain my comfort
Solitude to put me together

Am I out of my mind
Have I lost it all together
Or have the scales fallen
I believe the latter

Seems like forever
It's only been a breath
And tomorrow will come too slow
And leave too quickly

So if you're watching the same moon
Come dance with me
We'll sing our own tune

Darkness envelopes me

with such a loving carress,

twisting designs before my closed eyes

with a sinful lust seething in my breast.

The days have gone by,

when I could feel what you call love,

now tragedy rapes comedy

freeing the owl and killing the dove.

The bittersweet colour of night

has stained even my waking eyes,

so that I can no longer tell

where the border of Joy and Hate lies.

Smoke curls about me

but my eyes cleave through the veil,

and memories of times long gone

reminds me that I am best suited to fail.

I stand upon the last vestiges of the flowers' beauty

and upon the last of my life's fluid with a smile so wry,

the blood and orchids beneath my feet,